Not Fat Enough

[allison_is]

fatshionista changed the OOTD rules. Now anyone who is only a US 16 or over can post outfits of the day (OOTD). But it gets better! If you are maybe 5'4" or shorter, it might be approved because short 14s are somehow more fat than a 5'8" 14! What the hell?

Yes, there is inbetweenies but I was just actively defatted by a size acceptance community which is great. Really. I can shop at most of the stores listed by inbetweenies. I still have to buy Lane Bryant Right Fit jeans to fit my hip to waist ratio, but I can wear an XL at the gap in stretch top and a cardigan if I maybe don't button it, SO HEY NOT FAT. I can't remember being unfat. Ever. Remember that time I was in high school and oinked at as I walked by? I guess I was unfat then.

It seems weird that I struggle to be identified as fat when I am trying to lose weight, but I think it's an important part of who I am. I think I do it because it normalizes fat in a way. Yes, I am at the smaller end of the spectrum but I am still sometimes mocked by people who think I cannot hear them. And it hurts. But I can't post pictures of my fatshions on the FA community because I'm not fat enough?

God.